Last night I went over to Cute Lawyer for dinner and to see the New Year in. I met her two beautiful daughters, but only as a “friend” of their Mum… I was completely captivated by them, though, especially the younger one, who’s seven, and who kind of took to me as soon as I walked through the door. We ended up doing handstands for some reason, and had a great meal, lots of wine, and then some champagne as the clock struck midnight.
If I were to be entirely honest I’d have to say that I’m not entirely convinced that she’s the woman for me. Not that there’s anything tangible wrong more that I just don’t feel… hmmm. Something. That thing that makes us tingle when we first meet someone. And – at the same time – I’ve come to realise that I let someone go a while back who I should have realised was very, very special. Remember the post about an amazing girl I called “C”? I can’t seem to get her out of my mind, and she’s made a point of keeping in touch over the last few months, including a really sweet Christmas card on top of the emails and texts. I don’t know for sure what this will mean in terms of consequences, but I’m going to give it some thought and then do whatever my heart, as opposed to my head, tells me is right.
At the same time, GG has started another psycho email offensive. She alternates between telling me what a disappointment I’ve proven to be and then implying that I’m her soulmate, the love of her life. And apparently I feel the same weay, but I’m too frightened to admit it. This one, the fourth tonight, hit my inbox as I was staring to type this post…
“An hour of silence… or a night of gorgeous sex…before you taste another woman… I still have your taste in my mouth…do you have mine in yours?Sorry if that was a bit explicit, but it's what I have to read when I check my mail. I mean, for fuck sake, give me a break! I think it would have been advantageous not to have behaved like a complete lunatic from hell, GG, in retrospect. N’est pas?
I’d love to lavish your cock again once more. I know all the skin, all the wrinkles… and see your beautiful house one last time… I feel you are my true love….my only one in this earth, past or future…
I am so truly sad... Do you believe in fate?”
I hope you all had a great time over the New Year, anyway... I have a strong feeling that 2006 is going to be an important year, for some reason. Lot's of us seem to have reached some kind of watershed in our lives, and it'll be interesting to look back this time next year... I wonder what we'll be feeling. I hope we're all in a good place, though.