The situation with regard to GG has pretty much come to a conclusion, and I must admit that I’m carrying a certain sadness with me at the moment. She managed to make a connection with me that few have before, but in other ways I knew from the beginning that it wasn’t quite right. And my response when I realise this is to never quite give enough… maybe that’s the way we all respond. I guess its just human nature.
Today, the postman knocked at my door, and when I opened it I could see that he was carrying a package with my name on it. Inside was a rather strange assortment of things… one sock that had been lost after on overnight stay at GG’s flat in London; one fairly cheap but refillable lighter, acquired in Frankfurt last year and left on her lounge table one time or another; some Chorizo sausages brought back from her trip to Spain a couple of weeks ago; and a rather delicious looking Spanish sweet in a wooden box sealed with wax.
With it was a letter…
My dearest WDKYThe sadness I mentioned earlier is very real, and when I think about her, I realise that I could almost have loved her. And some of the things she’s written have touched my heart. Now, it’s time to put this behind me, but I do so whilst making just a small wish for GG’s happiness too. Well, not such a small wish, actually.
I had a couple of things for you from Spain…please accept them in anticipation of Christmas, as it seems that you and I are now not going to meet…
I hope all your wishes come true, whatever they may be, and that your life and dreams will be fulfilled. No matter what, I will only have good feelings towards you and I truly wish you’ll find happiness in all possible ways. Knowing you happy, will make me happy.
All my love,
GGx
15 comments:
I have to wholeheardtedly agree about being an iceberg when it comes to my blog. I share some very raw moments but there are so many more layers to the depth of me.
It made me cry a bit to read about GG. Such small momentos to be packaged with a letter like that. I think you both are very special people.
xx
I'm a bit sad for you as well about GG, as I know how hard it is to end things with someone special to you. But I truly believe that you have many good things coming to you, and you're so special that you will definitely find true love!!f
Miss you!
Sending you good thoughts and peaceful moments.
On to new pastures WDKY!
Change of URL, change of chicks...
Change is good.
i was feelin quite sad for both you and Miss GG after reading her letter and receiving that poor lonely lil sock...then I read NYM's comment-man...that girl cracks me up. She just moves along and doesn't look back. Too bad we all don't have a little bit of NYM in us huh???
I'm with nym - onward and upward,
and I'm sure you won't let the grass grow under your feet
It's funny, the things we share and the things we don't. A little bittersweet, a gift like that, isn't it?
Ruthie... sorry, didn't mean to make you cry :-(
Cat - thank you. I hope so!
KD, thanks...
EE, slightly ajar? maybe, and thanks for a thoughtful comment.
NYM - yes, I think you're probably right at the end of the day!
Sher - I always where Kalvin boxers, both styles. I'll get some more just to be sure :-)
Kimmy - it sure is. I'm just... sensitive. I can't help it.
Sher - bloody hell. Where's the link for Google ads?
Zooz, you're no doubt right. As it happens... ;-)
Blue, life is bittersweet. Don't you think?
*sniff*! The pain behind that note is tangible. Once I left all my exes stuff from my place in a gray paper bag in his sofa for him to find when he returned from his holiday. Glad to see she's a kinder person than I was.
*confessing*
I once broke up with a boyfriend when he was overseas in the military.
There I admitted it!!
BTW, welcome to your new blog.
i feel so sad for u both wdky... that must've been tough to receive and send,im sure... kinda like a final goodbye or something... but time to move on i guess..
J's G... you don't seem so tough to me :-)
Ruthie - I'm shocked (and thanks)!
Check, time to move on indeed. It's not been an enjoyable expereince, though :-(
Hi WDKY,
That's the beauty of an anonymous blog. You only have to share what you want or what feels good to you.
A well written and mature goodbye from GG. Time to move forward.
Im sorry to hear you've split but it sounds like it was for the best for both of her. You obviously couldnt be what she needed you to be and you didnt live up to her expectations. You both deserve someone who can love you wholeheartedly, not someone who could almost love the other because that would be comprimise and if there is one area I dont believe in comprimising, its love - especially when you value your independence so much. Good luck x.
Sometimes I think those 'almost' loves hurt worse than the 'in' loves. I think you were able to open up a part of yourself that was locked away before. Maybe now, the right person will come along and unlock the rest of you.
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