Friday, November 04, 2005

I shouldn't be here

What a bummer. I’ve been leading a bid that was due to be finished today, and we all ended up staying late in the office until it was ready to go to print. I had to call GG and tell her that I wouldn’t be able to make dinner this eveing, which is a real shame… she was making tortilla, which I was looking forward to. Now I won’t see her until Sunday, and then she’s off to Spain to see her family for a week. I’m going to have to try to stay out of mischief, which hasn’t proven to be a particular skill of mine in the past.

As for Dick… well, I had a couple of meetings today at which he was present, and he was an absolute pussycat. Now he’s not that bright, so my thinking is that he knows we’re not heading for a big falling out. Either that or I’ve got him wrong – he’s really very bright, and I’m screwed. I’m an optimist so I’m going for the former.

Zooz was just asking if I’m going to the fireworks party with GG (she’s dying to have a good look at her I reckon) but the truth is, I don’t think I’m ready for GG to meet the children just yet. I’ve made a point of shielding them from my personal life, and until I get a feeling that there’s at least a glimmer of longevity to our relationship I’ve decided that I’m going to continue to play it cautiously. I feel like I have to protect the children from people coming into their lives and then disappearing again… but then I know I’m over-protective in all sorts of ways. I also know that being the kind of father I want to be means that they have to come first. But that's fine, because it's how I want it to be...

I was having a look at some very strange sites today, courtesy of Stumble Upon. This one is cool, because although it takes ages to work out what the fuck’s going on the music is lovely. Especially late at night.

16 comments:

zooz said...

Right decision of course, with regards to GG meeting the kids. It's just that I'm so nosey.

I can't access that site btw

WDKY said...

I know you're nosy. Better?

kt said...

That's the only way to be as a parent. Is there any other choice?

Lovely music.

WDKY said...

Hello kt. Yes, I know you know what I mean... glad you like the music :-)

Caterpillar said...

I love that you're a good father! They definitely shouldn't be meeting GG until you know whether there's a future with her.

And I'm going with Dick NOT being bright! You - yes, him - no.

Claire said...

I agree with you on the parenting. I'm exactly the same. I was seeing this guy on and off for five years but I never introduced him to my son because the whole thing was so unreliable, even though I was head over heels. I think when it comes to your kids, you know what the right thing to do even when other aspects of your life are not so clear cut. Good luck anyway.

E-E said...

wow, what a neat little site... "quest for the rest"... and the music IS very cool, relaxing. A nice way to 'put me to bed'.... :)

Have a fantastic w/e, anyway, wdky!

Sher said...

Ok..I'm offically insane trying to navigate through the quest! But I made it out.

I totally agree...do not expose the children at this point. GO with your gut on this one.

it's all about me said...

I liked the quiz so much I stole it. Thanks wdky. :-)

WDKY said...

Thanks Cat, you're always so sweet!

Claire, it's important, isn't it? The only thing that matters to me is being the best Dad I can be.

Emerald, it's lovely music and a lovely site... I'm glad you enjoyed it too. I've wanted to put you to bed for a while now ;-)

Sher - you're clearly smart as well as beautiful!

Sara, you can have anything of mine you want. You just have to ask me and it's yours.

Internet Wombat said...

Quotes, deadlines, late nights. Been there, done that, will undoubtably do it again. Why is it how ever much planning you put into preparing a bid it's always a last minute rush?

I liked the quest - just what I needed to get my brain in gear on a Saturday morning, although I will have that end music in my head for the rest of the day :-)

Hold me know, don't start shaking...

razza said...

I'm either too sleep-deprived or too stupid - but I can't figure out how to operate the quest. Can someone enlighten me?

enjoy your blog WDKY... but wonder how you manage to find the time to reply to all these amazingly inspired comments!

(oh, and i prefer "sleep-deprived" thanks ;-)

WDKY said...

Razza, I'm glad you enjoy my blog. The truth is, I'm often working at the computer when comments come in (like yours just now) and it's nice to shoot off a quick response.

As for The Quest, a small clue... in the first scenrio, you'll see that the turtle-like creature is pulling something. Focus your attention on the cactus and you may find that things start to happen :-)

I assumed sleep-deprived, btw...

WDKY said...

Wombat, you're right, it's the nature of such things. Soon, though, I'll be doing it for me - hopefully, anyway!

NML said...

Stupid blogger ate my comment but in essence I said that you're right not to introduce her to the kids. Only confuses the hell out of them otherwise. I only met one of my mums boyfriends even though there were more, so I talk from experience! Hopefully all will be OK with work, fingers crossed. You'd better cross yours for me as I have been called to meet with my boss to talk about my 'future' and I have a suspiscion that he's up to something! Anyway! Have a good weekend x

WDKY said...

Don't you hate it when that happens? I'm going to keep everything crossed for you, but I don't have any sense of forboding... maybe it'll be a really nice surprise. Good luck anyway, and have a lovely w/e too x