Monday, October 03, 2005

Making your mark.

I'm sitting here having a shot of tequila (note to self: not much left now, must get some more), one last Camel Light, and wondering how the weekends go by so quickly... it'll soon be getting-up time and I so don’t fancy working tomorrow (today now, unfortunately). And I don't feel very tired, so instead of filling my mind with things to send me off to sleep (fluffy pictures and sounds of whale noises) I've been playing with Firefox extensions, prompted by J's comment about 'Stumble Upon' - which I'd never heard of before. It's already made me laugh actually, with just my second Stumble. I mean, when was the last time you asked yourself The Question? You know the one... Is there a God? (Now you know the answer. No offence intended to believers, of course...)

Lack of sleep is beginning to really get on my nerves, to say nothing of it being responsible for my slightly hagard, vaguely skeletal (but still ruggedly handsome) appearance of late. I have a suspicion that some of my insomnia is being caused by the fact that I hate working in a corporate environment, which just happens to be the precise environment that I've been working in for the last couple of years. So I’ve decided that I need to effect change, and I’ve kind of started the ball rolling albeit in a subtle and completely risk-free way. By asking the powers that be to make me redundant. And to do it as soon as possible! And if all goes according to plan, I'll be re-launching my old management consultancy within the next month or so, and building on my reputation of being an iconoclastic, opinionated but surprisingly loveable maverick.

There's a serious side to all this, of course. I think it's important in life to be as true to yourself as possible, and at the moment there's just not enough integrity in what I'm doing for the bulk of my day, 5 days a week. I feel like I'm treading water, and I want to be challenged. But I also want to make my own rules instead if operating within the constraints of somebody else's. I really don’t know what's wrong with me... maybe I really am an iconoclastic, opinionated but surprisingly loveable maverick.

That would be cool.

16 comments:

NewYorkMoments said...

What kind of tequila? I like Heradura. Always on the rocks with a piece of lime.

WDKY said...

Jose Cuervo Especial. It's about the only one you can get easily here.

I like it neat. It reminds me of the nights I've almost passed out on slammers.

Blueprincesa said...

you probably are.

Caterpillar said...

I'm sure you're AT LEAST a surprisingly lovable maverick!! And I'm all for the iconoclastic and opinionated part as well! That would be very cool!!

And I hope your Monday isn't as bad as you dread it will be! Just think - you'll get out of it soon!

WDKY said...

Thanks, Blue & Cat. Yes, I'll get out of it soon (sigh)...

k o w said...

Life's to big an ocean just to tread water in.

I'm not much for tequila.

Sky said...

You don't want to be within my constraints? :)

j said...

S.U. has some good moments.

way to be a risk taker. i'm thinking your life doesn't get too boring.

WDKY said...

KOW, you're so right. I'm more of a vodka than a tequila man, btw. I like them both, but the quantity of vodka consumed is higher.

Sky, you're wrong. I so do.

J - very perceptive. I'm impressed.

Networkchic said...

Tequila brings back many memories...and some of them include treading water.

Sky said...

Now would you like silk, rope or just plain 'ol handcuffs? *wink

... jacek ... said...

I think you should switch to bourbon whiskey, start coming into work with unkempt hair, and tell your boss that he's a communist pisstwat - this way you can be assured of getting laid off (as we call redundancies here in the us) and instead of treading water, actually start swimming.

remember it's all about the Bourbon.

WDKY said...

Actually, EJ, I did say to him that "it's obvious that we hate each other". It was diplo-speak for "I hate you" but he seemed to get the message :-)

As for the swimming, I'm on my warm-up lap. The timing's important for a whole load of reasons, though. (One, actually. Money.)

WDKY said...

Sky, with those eyes I can't say that I give a damn. Just look me in the eye while you're tying.

... jacek ... said...

wdky, just in case he didnt get the message you can always piss on his shoe :) - I've always wanted ot do that say

"I quit" and whip it out and piss on the boss' shoes

WDKY said...

I think I'd rather piss in his mouth.

Please don't read anything into that...