I've posted quite a lot regarding my feelings about GG lately. Sometimes, when I think to myself that it might not be quite what I want at present, she calls or emails and I realise why I'm prepared to make more of an effort than I seem to have done with many of the other women that I've known over the last year or two.
I've decided to post an email that I received yesterday, to try and give you a feeling for what I mean. You'll have to excuse her English as its not her first language.
Some more wonderful hours spent with you last weekend... Tell me, where do they go all those beautiful hours?
Was working until late yesterday again but the project is now finished. I will have a few days free now and I hope to be soon back to "normal" sleep patterns and be able to get on with other matters.
As I told you, I am also thinking in going to Galicia in a few days, have my half term next week and no work, so it seems the ideal timing and it is something I can't delay for longer anyway. I'll tell you about dates as soon as I'll book my ticket.
That will mean we will "miss" one (or 2) of "our weekends" but at times it may feel like we are slipping into a "habit" and we wouldn't like to happen. Would we?
I'll have a few flexible days ahead anyway so just let me know if you'd like (and have time) to go to an exhibition or need any photos taken.
By the way I love the Nirvana CD you recorded for me... I am listening to it right now. I hope you are well and you are dealing with your stress in a positive way. You know how it is... you have to believe in you... my darling...
Later, just before I decided to post this on my blog, she wrote to me again.
There is one more thing I'd like to tell you... and that is that I truly appreciate your current situation, the motions you are going through and the stress you are dealing with.
You may get the impression at times that I take it light-heartedly but I really don't. One thing I do know is that I trust you. You are bright, tenacious and daring and I am in no doubt that you are going to be alright...
It is purely about believing, if we believe we can make things happening, they will happen and you will...I just know!
I don't want to add any stress in you life nor do I have any desire of "hassling" you. Perhaps the reason of my spaced notes, messages and calls but I'd like you to know that, whatever the nature of our relationship is, or will be, if at any time, you need a shoulder to rest on (or cry on) or just a friend to talk to, I'll always be there for you.
So, this is just the merest glimpse of the woman I refer to as GG, and she's some woman. And it seems like our thoughts aren't so dissimilar after all. Tomorrow, I think it's time for another aimless ramble on here. I'm sure you must all be quite bored with this now.
Hang on... tomorrow is HNT!!!