Sunday, October 02, 2005

Random thoughts 5.

Sunday. Crikey, the week's gone quickly, although I did spend half of it in bed which is probably why. This morning, though, the sun’s shining and I'm going to go for a run. Me, iPod and DCD.

I was chatting to Zooz yesterday (she of the reference, how embarrassing was that? And can we leave it there, please?) and she said I really am duty bound to keep posting daily because it means we don't have to speak!! When I first started this blog, about three weeks ago, I really didn't think I'd be motivated enough to do it, but now I'm finding that it just seems to happen of its own accord. And when I get a comment from Technorati themselves, just at the merest mention of their name, it does have the effect of spurring me on a bit. I mean, how impressive is that? Thanks Dave! (Now, I wonder who'll respond if I just mention, in passing, that I've switched to Mozilla as I resent the fact that Microsoft are taking over the world?)

Right, to the dilemma. I did speak to C last night. We weren't on the phone for all that long – maybe an hour or so – but during that time GG sent three texts to my mobile. This after the previous text was some time during Saturday morning. Okay, as an agnostic-cum-atheist I’m not suggesting that this was any kind if divine intervention, but it was certainly ironic. It was as if I was being told not to f*ck this up. To think carefully.

I did think carefully, actually, and C and I have decided to meet for a drink one day next week. I'm going to see how it 'feels' before I make any snap decisions, but if the chemistry is still there I'll have to deal with the situation one way or another, but deal with it decisively. I won't allow myself to screw either of them around. ('Repeat after me...') Anyway, I know what'll happen if I do… I'll end up sitting here with neither of them. That's how these things work, isn’t it?

I'm really not sleeping well at the moment. For some reason my brain won't seem to shut down until that period just before dawn when sleep-panic begins to set in. I mentioned in a post a while ago that I generally live in an environment of calm (or harmony, as GG put it) and, invariably, when this happens to me it's because something has been knocked out of kilter. I while ago, I was going to look into the possibility of booking into a Buddhist retreat out in the wilds of Hertfordshire somewhere, but for some reason I put it on the back burner. I think I'll do something a bit more proactive about it.

29 comments:

Claire said...

1. Those comments from Zooz were funny! If she has a blog, I want to read it!!

2. Yay for moving to Mozilla! I've been with it over a year now and couldn't live without it. I HATE IE with a vengence (and all the pop ups that take over the world, I, er, mean my screen!).

3. V sensible re the girls. Just take it easy and what happens will happen. You're young so enjoy your youth (you are young right? youre not like 68 or something?!)

4. As we are both sleep depreviatees (shut up it *is* a word!) maybe we could chat on msn some time seeing as were both around at the same time and the rest of the world isnt. My msn addy is my full name (all one word) at msn.com.

Off to bed now though as ive been up since yesterday at 4pm!

NewYorkMoments said...

Yeah...Must tread carefully. I tried to carry on relationships with 2 guys once. I guess I'm not organized or intelligent enough, because it was so difficult! I used to get confused, and I didn't realize just how much lying I was going to have to do. In the end, I dumped them both.

Erm...Did I have a point? Oh, Yeah...Tread carefully...

But I'm sure it will all work out for the best :-)

WDKY said...

Claire...

1. Zooz always say's what she thinks, and she can be hilarious! She was going to start a blog but I don't think she's got it up and running yet.

2. Me too - over a year, I mean. I love Mozilla.

3. I am young! I am! Actually, I'm not, but my body is a finely tuned love machine.

4. Is it a word? Really? I'll add you to my contacts and would love some early morning chats. I won't post my MSN addy here for fear of abuse, though!!

And yes - GO TO BED!

NYM, as always your comments are... errr... Thanks, though :-)

Claire said...

1. She sounds like a girl after my own heart!

2. Thought you said you just changed over to mozilla?

3. How old *are* you?! (nearly choked on my tomato soup when I read that about you being a well oiled love machine, lol)

4. yeah no worries just add me and im sure youll show up somewhere...

What does NYM mean? :S And my comments are always...what?!!

WDKY said...

Claire (2)...

1. Yes, you could be right.

2. No, I didn't mean "just". I've been using both Firefox and Thunderbird for about a year now. They're excellent.

3. My age is on my profile, actually. I wear it with indifference.

4. MSN is down. I'll mail you with my details anyway, though.

"NYM", by the way, is "New York Moments". Why is it always "me, me, me"???

:-)

Claire said...

opps, didnt realise I write about myself constantly in *your* comments, lol, opps here I go again..will try to be better!

WDKY said...

Yes, please focus on me in future.

sirreene said...

I say take them both at the same time period!!! be a CAVEMAN!

WDKY said...

I ssaume you mean take them simultaneously, Sirreene. Yes, I'd like that.

NML said...

I really don't know where people get the energy to juggle two people because I barely find the time for one sometimes ;-) I'm glad that you realise that you've got to sort the situation out with the ladies. I switched to Mozilla a few weeks ago although for some stuff I still need to use IE. Mozilla is much better though!

WDKY said...

Hello, NML... are you my visitor from Ireland? Hope you're having a great time.

Yes, I'm being a good boy.

ladylongfellow said...

God fix your "Chi" or something...lol..it's outta whack. Or maybe something else is outta whack? lol Or maybe you just need to "whack off" more. Yeah.

NewYorkMoments said...

What does THIS mean?

NYM, as always your comments are... errr... Thanks, though :-)

Remember...I'm hormonal...Be nice. Please.

zooz said...

you're right wdky - if you try to juggle both you'll end up with neither. That's what happened with my two Prince Alberts in the end. Plus I could never remember who I told what to.

WDKY said...

LL, you seem to be thinking a lot about whacking. I so know what you need!

NYM, you know I love your comments. And your blog. And your horniness. I was playing verbally with you, as I haven't had a chance to play physically with you. Yet.

Zooz, juggling Prince Alberts is notoriously difficult. One of them always ends up going down the plug.

NewYorkMoments said...

Ooooh...dont' tease!

zooz said...

down the plug hole in a cockwise direction?

WDKY said...

Isn't that always the way?

Claire said...

are you being serious, i cant tell?!

If you are, take a look at your comments in my journal!!

if not, you naughty boy you.

WDKY said...

Claire, did I sound like I was being serious? DID I???

Errr, no, of course I wasn't. I love it when you talk about you, anyway. I prefer it when you talk dirty though.

serendipity said...

Be careful you don't hurt either of these women - but more than that, make sure you don't end up without either of them.

Mozilla - I was using it for ages but there are a lot of things it doesn't do yet so I do tend to use IE. Though IE does suck!

WDKY said...

Yes. I mean to being careful, not to IE. They don't support tabbed browsing, and I could never, never go back!

Claire said...

Now I *know* you're being a bad boy! ;-)

j said...

big fan of Mozilla. i like all the options especially the tabs and Stumble Upon.

my brain constantly keeps me awake. that's why i've been a journaller for so long. i keep hoping that by getting it out it may give me a rest :)

WDKY said...

"Stumbled Upon"? I don't know what that is, so I'm off to look it up!

WDKY said...

Blimey. It's rather good :-)

j said...

when it's good it's really good. my favorite mindless thing that i 'found' is bubble fun

not as good as the real thing though

Networkchic said...

I have to go with the "things always happen for a reason." Have you ever thought that maybe C has come back into focus to sort of test your feelings for GG? Remember my post about a guy I was into not so long ago and I ran into him and all the old feelings surfaced. Anyway, I think things ended with C because you couldn't pin her down..remember? I think she probably took it hard that you wanted to end things, because us women never like to fail. It's ok if we're the deal breakers but not the other way around. I would just hate to see you throw something away on something that seems it wasn't meant to be anyway. Just think of it this way, what if it were GG going to meet an old flame to see how she felt about you? Would you be ok with that?

WDKY said...

Thanks, J - I went for manic mode. It was cathartic.

NWC, I've given one or two clues on here about my religious root (I mean roots) and you may know what I mean when I say that guilt is something I can do very well myself, without any need for a helping hand... Seriously, though, I don't really know the anwer to your question, to be honest. I guess it would depend on the outcome?
Funny thing is, I keep reading about The Talk on the US blogs... I'm not sure that it happens in such a structured way over here. I may have to blog about that...