Sunday. Crikey, the week's gone quickly, although I did spend half of it in bed which is probably why. This morning, though, the sun’s shining and I'm going to go for a run. Me, iPod and DCD.
I was chatting to Zooz yesterday (she of the reference, how embarrassing was that? And can we leave it there, please?) and she said I really am duty bound to keep posting daily because it means we don't have to speak!! When I first started this blog, about three weeks ago, I really didn't think I'd be motivated enough to do it, but now I'm finding that it just seems to happen of its own accord. And when I get a comment from Technorati themselves, just at the merest mention of their name, it does have the effect of spurring me on a bit. I mean, how impressive is that? Thanks Dave! (Now, I wonder who'll respond if I just mention, in passing, that I've switched to Mozilla as I resent the fact that Microsoft are taking over the world?)
Right, to the dilemma. I did speak to C last night. We weren't on the phone for all that long – maybe an hour or so – but during that time GG sent three texts to my mobile. This after the previous text was some time during Saturday morning. Okay, as an agnostic-cum-atheist I’m not suggesting that this was any kind if divine intervention, but it was certainly ironic. It was as if I was being told not to f*ck this up. To think carefully.
I did think carefully, actually, and C and I have decided to meet for a drink one day next week. I'm going to see how it 'feels' before I make any snap decisions, but if the chemistry is still there I'll have to deal with the situation one way or another, but deal with it decisively. I won't allow myself to screw either of them around. ('Repeat after me...') Anyway, I know what'll happen if I do… I'll end up sitting here with neither of them. That's how these things work, isn’t it?
I'm really not sleeping well at the moment. For some reason my brain won't seem to shut down until that period just before dawn when sleep-panic begins to set in. I mentioned in a post a while ago that I generally live in an environment of calm (or harmony, as GG put it) and, invariably, when this happens to me it's because something has been knocked out of kilter. I while ago, I was going to look into the possibility of booking into a Buddhist retreat out in the wilds of Hertfordshire somewhere, but for some reason I put it on the back burner. I think I'll do something a bit more proactive about it.